general election made me realise how ungrateful and fucked up human being is. (i actually typed out one whole chunk of justifying my point.. but i decided this would sum it up..)

well, xiaxue blog had totally hit the nail of what was in my head.. take some time to read

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2011/05/vote-wisely.html

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2011/05/what-fuck-singaporeans.html

why cant ppl just stop ruining my day? or my life??
im just so irritated and annoyed and so lazy to talk about it here.. so anyways...

lets move on..

pls ah.. just tahan my ramblings for awhile...

1.) with the recent earthquake/tsunami/nuclear plant blast, ppl r going around asking for donations to japan. seriously, i believe what japan need now is not money but uncontaminated food and water. Why issit that time and again even at this point do ppl still think that money can make the world go round? Even if they did receive the money..think about it.. what can they use the money for??

2.) one of our ministers have commented that he will not put in effort in helping citizens feel the loyalty in their own country when they dont feel that they belong here and recently commented that singaporeans r making so much noise when orchard kena flooded and that we should learn from japan and so on... i mean its true.. singaporeans are taking for granted that no disaster will ever strike. we have not experience anything or even similar to what japan has faced. but if disaster do strike singapore, i strongly believe that we will definitely unite to pull through this.. what amazes me is how our own ministers r belittling us, his own people. how he have so little faith in us..

i personally feel that singapore is always catering to the foreigners..trying to impress them to come over instead of putting the same effort in working on their own citizens. and even if they do work on their own citizen, its to show the foreigners how "good" singapore is. i dont know if u guys understand what i mean...

Watching the news these days makes me feel so @#$%@#%@#%. with the riots/strikes/war/natural disasters/animal abuse.. im really not surprised that the world is coming to an end very soon because of human's selfishness. on another hand, it also make me realise how lucky singapore is. yes, we may be unhappy with how our govt runs things.. and complain non stop about it ( like me) but at the end of the day, we force ourself to accept it and not go on strike/riot with the authorities. isnt that something the ppl up there should thank singaporeans for??

do people seriously think only singaporens complain nonstop??

how bout this.. maybe ppl of other countried complain by going on strike, riots and war with the govt.

ppl should really stop complaining about sgporeans and lookin down on us..

3.) earth hour was disappointing... how hard issit for ppl to just off the light for one hour of the day of the year?

4.) im now a pescetarian

i didnt want to tell myself my parents has aged. cos it just makes me feel sad that they have to leave me soon.
well, i gues its time to face reality that they r no longer what they r 20 yrs ago.
and that they can no longer take care of me. its time for me to take care of them.
my mom was admitted to hospital.. for the first time in my entire life i saw my mom in hospital. and only then i realised she has aged so much.

amazing ah.... so ive shrunk to 156. GREAT LAHH....JUST GREATTTTTTTTT

for the past few mths, ive been in a super emo mood where i qn my friends of how much they care for me and also letting all my emotion flow out like that without realising what we have all once shared and how at the end of the day we still have each other even though we r super busy with our lives.

i now learnt that its not about who calls first or the times we r being rejected or the amount of time spent with each other. its about how in our heart al of us just knows how much we love each other. how we can sit at someplace not having to talk and all stone tgther while enjoying each other's company.

SERIOUSLY NOTHING CAN BEAT THAT (u suckahs knw who im talking about)

friendship is about giving each other space, understanding and respecting each other.

well, apparently some ppl wil never learn, even after countless failed friendship or rather failed friendship-trying-to-turn-it-into-relationship attempt.
im so pissed.
seriously if u really regard us as ur friend like how u say u r, u would have learn to respect us and our own privacy and not judge us jus cos we dont want to meet u.

im so pissed.

life is so hard
i wish i was dead.........and even if so..we still have to think abt th broken hearts
life sucks. its just full of non stop worrying and problems as long as our brains r working


i wish i didnt had a brain..
so dat i can just die
without even thinking abt anything
like... just die

ive always read too much into things.. and analyse words/actions so much so dat i so called think about things other wouldnt have thought of.. or rather "jump into conclusion " or being paranoid for some..

but what if my conclusions r supported by solid evidence and are right at the end of the day. issit still called jumping into conclusions?

i start to think alot these days.. abt frenship.. abt my rshp..abt my future. im having so much problems lately..about my rshp with ppl arnd me..

n best part is.. the person whom i trust wholeheartedly and depend emotionally on heavily is turning his back against me n telling me ive got an ego and actually walked away from me just cos i was super defensive over a fren talking shit about my rshp..abt him to me n abt me to him.

i was upset.. dat it seems to me dat im the onli one who cares abt hw ppl r talking abt our rshp. Yes, i know. i shud have been stronger and not let things like that put me down even after 5/6 yr long rshp.. but afterall im still human. I believe that as a true friend, you shouldnt judge my rshp, or even qn hw we both r running th rshp. or even say shit to us like u deserve better and go on to the other n say the same thing.

it just frustrates me so much to see that im the only one being affected by this.and frustrates me even more when he just cant see it th way i do and think nthing of it.

hypocritical, critical, paranoid, skeptical, ego....

all these words i will never forget...from the mouth of someone dear to me

i deleted it cos i was being a........ fuckface..

i love u naz n shu.. no matter what evil things ive said n done.
of all the shit ive said n done, u guys still love me as much
and i love u guys as much.. and more if u think u say u guys love me more... (its like i love u more but den u say u love me more n i go i more more !!..u get the drift..)


n yea.. i love u guys..

yea...

i...
love..
u..
like..
my
rats......

sec sch friends r the best..
but things have changed SO MUCH.
i think i need to start looking for new friends
and stop thinking they r still the best.
cos it just leads up to disappoinments

=(